finally get back on track..

after 1 month struggling with my own emotion and feeling,i finally decided to let him go for the sake of our future..i know that i'm the black sheep in this relationship as i only assumed this relationship as a 'trend' and to make this other man jealous but now i'm realised that i'm being too selfish n childish and as the impact,i'm try to ruin my own life just most people had that..so after taking a long deep breath,i'm finally back with my real persona and ready to face the world once again and this time,in the different perspective..just let say i'm wanna be a totally different person yet still have the same special characteristics that reperesent me..
till then,just hoping that everything will run smoothly as planned and of course with the His permission..